midweek

Sometimes I think I have nothing good to say in the internet world, like everyday life is just... well, everyday life. Do I really want to tell you that we're making another slow cooker brisket this weekend? (it'll be delicious, actually...) Or that my parents are coming into town and we'll probably eat lots of great food and go to the city? Or that I have 3 portrait sessions next week? Or that I always seem to have a clean laundry pile in the center of the room that never gets put away? Is any of this stuff interesting?

I guess my life is so busy that sometimes I feel like I have no brainpower to delve into the deep issues in life online. I barely have any time to challenge myself to really think about important issues when there's so much work to be done. It might just be a summer thing, or perhaps it's just a this year thing, or maybe it's a me thing. Starting a business can be hard, especially wedding photography, because I'm still trying to figure out how to make time for myself, my family, and my friends, and still be there for my clients (and be awesome at it!). I go to my Twitter account, look at the blank box, try to type an interesting musing about life, but I've got nothing. "What should I write? I guess I can tell everyone what I've been up to for the last week...." but really? That's it? That's all I've got? I don't want to be some amazing, witty philosopher in 140 characters or less, but I don't have ANY thoughts on life at all other than an observation on how many Diet Cokes I consumed in the last week?

I'm starting to wonder if I live way to much in the past and future, and not at all in the present. I'm so focused on past and future work/adventures, that I'm not engaging my mind here and now. I'm so caught up in work... next week's portrait session/shoot, next week's editing deadline, this October's move into a  house rental (woot!), but I have no idea what I'm feeling about who I am and what I'm doing right now. I mean, when is the last time I really sat down and asked the Lord to challenge and grow me? Is it possible to slow down and ask the Lord to show me how to be present and patient in the midst of the busiest part of the wedding season?

How many more hypothetical questions am I going to ask in this post? Sheesh! :)